Ughlie - in the end Lyrics

See I'd be lying in the end
If I went through this whole project and I ain't say what I meant
Girl I really want to talk, where do I start, where do I begin
I guess it's time for me to open up again
I miss your smile, I miss your laugh
I'm missing how we finish f*cking and you still say run it back
How I always end up teasing you, by saying never that
I guess I'm missing what we had
A victim to my ego
Cuz I can't say this to your face
Am I scared of rejection
Do I not think shit would change
In the end it's all the same
Cuz no matter what I say
Cuz if you moved on saying this just ain't my place
See they gon' ask me whats been wrong
This ain't for them, this ain't a song
This is for me, cuz I feel wrong
I don't like what I been doing, I don't like what's in my thoughts
I been fighting with myself, ever since I knew you gone
We both grew up, we did our best
I guess it's time to let it rest
I guess it's time that I forget
This one gon' hurt more than the rest
I'm just glad I can address
Everything inside my head
Oh what a mess
I just want you, I want your love, I want your trust
I really wanted this to work, I wanted us
You were always someone who said I'm enough
There's still some things I want to say but just because
You said I should unblock you then I did, we still don't talk
How does that make sense, my heart and mind told me to block
We were blooming out so pretty, why do good things gotta stop
But when you called me up again, I thought that it would not
Am I reckless, am I dumb, or am I stupid
Should I not have put my faith all into cupid
You said we could be friends but you didn't mean it
Cuz we don't talk, that's how I see it
A victim to my ego
Cuz I can't say this to your face
Am I scared of rejection
Do I not think shit would change
In the end it's all the same
Cuz no matter what I say
Cuz if you moved on saying this just ain't my place
See they gon' ask me whats been wrong
This ain't for them, this ain't a song
This is for me, cuz I feel wrong
I don't like what I been doing, I don't like what's in my thoughts
I been fighting with myself, ever since I knew you gone