sometimes i wish Video (MV)

I watched you call that night
And I just let it ring
I think I'm doing fine
Is it hard to believe
Was it a lie this whole damn time
You say hate me but you hate yourself way more
I'm in my head again, guess I couldn't close that door
Walking away, seeing your face
But loving you was my mistake
This love is damaged baby, why can't you see that it's through
Those nights brought yelling and crying, don't you think I'm done with you
You f*cking heartless bitch, who left my heart broken and bruised
But I keep coming back for more, your fake love got me fooled
Sometimes I wish
Sometimes I wish I could let you go
Sometimes I wish
Sometimes I wish I could pull you close
I'm going back and forth
And I don't know what for
I guess I'm the one who loves you more
I know you been
Waiting for me
Your lips, your taste
Intoxicating
Sunny days turn into stormy nights
Victimize yourself, this shit ain't right
I dried my tears that the rain can't hide
Trauma waves came crashing and I survived
See now I'm floating and mixing up what's important
I wanted you all along but somewhere I lost the focus
Why don't you come outside, you're not alone at night
You can't say that you love me, when I know that you lie
This love is damaged baby, why can't you see that it's through
Those nights brought yelling and crying, don't you think I'm done with you
You f*cking heartless bitch, who left my heart broken and bruised
But I keep coming back for more, your fake love got me fooled
Sometimes I wish
Sometimes I wish I could let you go
Sometimes I wish
Sometimes I wish I could pull you close
I'm going back and forth
And I don't know what for
I guess I'm the one who loves you more