Val Holimion - In A Very Real Way Lyrics

I promise not to leave
Before you look for me
No longer can I see
The changing of the leaves
But still, my soul immured
Entombed atop the earth
My energy still burns
A drying bag of worms
I promise not to leave
Before my brothers see
I knew their souls would be
The hardest ones to leave
So give them all my best
Before I'm put to rest
I might have failed the test
But actually, I'm blessed
In a very real way, I'm told
My soul will never grow old
The reaper takes her hold
With talons bitter cold
Find me flattened on the street
Or frozen in the trees
Either way, you'll sense no heat
Behold, my entropy
My bones begin to break
Seal me to my fate
Yield beneath my weight
And wild, thorny rage
(I'm trying so hard to understand
How this possibly could have happened
How this completely avoidable thing
Wasn't avoided
Because surely, there has to be another reason
Besides pure and blatant negligence
I understand that you don't give a shit about me
That's fine
But he is defenseless
You and I both know that
But you, apparently, decided not to care
And now he's f*cking gone
Forever)
(Sirens)
I promise not to leave
Before you're over me
I'll lay here, real discrete
And listen to you breathe
But when my flowers rot
I will not cloud your thoughts
I'll step into your dreams
And maybe then I'll sleep.