I've been at this for some time now
I knew it'd be long haul
I'd knew it'd be a one way road, all give give 'til I'm all gone
Lonely as f*ck but subconsciously it's what I signed up for
Like I know there's something better, n' I don't wanna break any more hearts
Reservation for 2, but I'm sittin' at this table with no clue
Like I'm playin' Guess Who gon' walk through the door
Hoping it's you but you don't want me anymore
You want love, stability, n' kids
Funny thing's I want all of that n' hits
I just need some change ta' spare
I just need a fine wine ta' pair
Cuz' I want love that appreciates mine
Reciprocation hard ta' find
Eyes stay wide through salt mines, my soul cries out these lines
But I can't think straight, can't intertwine
Maybe I'm doomed, maybe there's no way out 'til I make room
Maybe I'm as lost as the wolf I fuel, it's true
I hate getting so upset, maybe we can work it out, we could work it out
I don't like to beef like other people do, girl I can't just stick around, while you figure out
I'm trying hard to, do all the things just to please you, give up on all of my dreams too
But nobody ever ask me how I'm feelin', don't they know I got needs too?
Makin' money just to feed you, girl I said I got needs too, girl I said I got needs too
Starin' at this flame tryin' not ta' blow it out
Tempted, but I gotta be the one to lead 'em out
If you would only listen 'steada' rollin' yo' eyes n' tunin' me out
You'd see the bigga' picture 'steada' puttin' me down
You'd see I'm this close ta' throwin' in 'da towel
You'd feel the same way, but'chu don't know how
Starved for attention, this generation so played out
Breakin' bread never reachin' my mouth
Fightin' for a morsel, gotta take what's left
Last meal and I still can't feel the presence of anybody else
I'm sittin' at this table all by myself
Lookin' at a plate, reflectin' the hate I've turned inta' wealth
This time around, only light gettin' in from darkness that I bleed out