Twisted thought is creeping in my head
Am I still alive or am I really dead
I pinch my face to see if I still hurt
I swallow hard just to taste the dirt
Just to taste the dirt
Did it happen or was it just a dream
Nothing matters anymore or so it seems
I lie and really don't want to get up
I keep pinching till it bleeds
But I don't want to stop
I have lost my will to live
I want to quietly leave
I want to fade into the void
My life is utterly destroyed
I have lost my strength to fight
I am dead inside
My heart is ripped off my chest
My soul with you is so possessed
I have lost my will to live
I want to quietly leave
I want to fade into the void
My life is utterly destroyed
I try to sleep again alone
The pill comes down my throat like a burning stone
I only wish I won't wake up again
Without you by my side there's only pain