Velocity - Music Is My Medicine Lyrics

I been going through shit
Dealing with this headache
Walking down this road
But I don't know where its headed
And I'm freaking out
What if I'm not the one they speak about
What if I'm not the one they bumping when they pull they speakers out
What if all this work is for nothing
What if 20 years down the line I was never something
Well I hope it never comes to that cuz if I fail down the line there isn't any coming back
I don't wanna be no failure
Never wanna hear the words I don't know what to tell ya
I just wanna wake up one day and my manager tells me to pack my bags
Cuz I'm about to tour Australia
I speak my mind some people seem to relate
Some people even hit me up saying imma be great
But wait, that don't mean its fate
What if I don't make it in time and after a point I'm just too late
This shit is boggling and bothering me everyday
I feel I'm at the bottom like an ottoman, I may delay
And if I'm honest with them I'm in a completely different lane
I'm feeling down a lot so I find myself frequently saying

Music is my medicine
Music is my medicine yeah
Music is my medicine
Music is my medicine yeah

As of lately I've had problems on my mental
I wanna talk about it but the one I wanna vent to
Don't talk to me anymore its hard for me to ignore
The fact I wanna talk to you but I guess we ain't meant to
How you go from talking to somebody everyday
To waking up and checking your phone cuz you hoping they said hey
And then you lay awake cuz to your dismay
Reality hits you that there might not be nothing left to say
That shit f*cking sucks right?
Now you gotta pretend you don't give no f*cks right?
They the only thing on your mind on a rough night
So if missing them is wrong you don't know what's right
And plus I don't see myself
The way she used to me she would tell me just to be myself
Now I'm trynna do things to get her off of my mind but none of the things
I'm doing ever seem to help
Man this shit feel like a throat jab
I'm spilling out my heart as I'm writing this in my notepad
But I guess that isn't so bad as long as I got my speaker and as long as I know that

Music is my medicine
Music is my medicine yeah
Music is my medicine
Music is my medicine yeah