War Video (MV)

If I die tonight
Yea it's funny cuz I can never see tomorrow
I think it's funny cuz these people see me fake a smile
Truth is that I'm broken
I been at war with myself
I need a doctor
I ain't thinking right
If I die tonight
Tell my family that I'm sorry
If I die tonight
They won't tell you till the morning
If I die tonight
I hope i find my purpose
I been tryna heal my pain but nothing's working
Now I'm popping pills wondering if it's really worth it
I don't think they working
I feel worthless
I feel worthless
No one understand my pain And how I'm hurting
Everyday I wake up thinking what's my purpose
What's my purpose
But really what's my purpose
I can't even lie
I drown myself with liquor every night
I can't even lie
I been distant
I cut myself off from the world
They turned me heartless
And now I'm cautious
The drugs they make me nauseous
Depression took a gun and shot me in the heart quick
100 rounds of pain that I deal with often
I ain't thinking right
I ain't thinking right now
I can hardly sleep
I can hardly sleep now
If I die tonight
If I die now
Will you remember me
Will you remember me now
Feeling trapped in my own mind
This ain't nothing new
I been feeling too much pain for way too long now
Keep on telling myself that it's gonna get better
3 years later and I swear I still feel no better
Doctor says i should be changing like the weather
I can't feel the breeze
I can't feel the wind that's supposed to be changing me
Now I'm screaming what the hell has gotten into me
When I look up at the mirror
I'm starring at the enemy
I can't explain these feelings
I can't explain these feelings right now
I ain't thinking right
I ain't thinking right now
I can hardly sleep
I can hardly sleep now
If I die tonight
If I die now
Will you remember me
Will you remember me now
If I die tonight