Versifyer - Reflections Lyrics

I look into the water-wishing harder-than I've ever wished
That I could get a away from this-reflection I've been jaded with
I've paid my weight in pain and fists-and came away with anger fifths
Lay empty on the floor of my apartment-and I'm late on rent

See my reflection in the bar
I wonder who the f*ck you are
You've taken everything too far
You're just a loser not a star
I keep a bottle by the bed
To fight the nightmares in my head
If I'd have known just where it led
I doubt I would have changed a bit

Live it up-get a cup...drink and you can rizz 'em up
Maybe if you're quick enough-you'll get a clap and get a buck
It's been a tough one-hit a blunt...hit the stage-give it up
Six string deepens this thing truly but are you legit enough?
Huh...just another sell out washed up rappin' wanna be
It ain't nothing new I'm used to people making fun of me
I create my own path...form the ground in front of me
If I fall off it's my own fault-and I won't do it humbly
That's real talk...I jump head first into everything
Looking for the better things-no more time for settling
Lost a f*cking wedding ring-found myself developing
A whole new sense of who I am-don't come at me medaling
I'll crush that-and you can bet you can trust that
Bust me up but don't think I won't come up and bust back
I love rap-you can taste the dust off my mudflaps
I'll leave you in it...because I've taken enough crap
Now and then I find myself in three fingers deep
A few more and it might just give me reason to sleep
My voice is fading-but it gives me reason to speak
It's funny how we grow more when we sink in the deep
Darkness inside I've been grinding creakin' my teeth
I've stayed alive but I've been hiding secrets I keep
Denial strong enough but bleeding's not why I'm weak
I'm weak because I need a drink for me to believe (in me)

See my reflection in the bar
I wonder who the f*ck you are
You've taken everything too far
You're just a loser not a star
I keep a bottle by the bed
To fight the nightmares in my head
If I'd have known just where it led
I doubt I would have changed a bit

I'm not a hero when I'm not on the microphone
I'm sitting in the studio but none of the lights are on
My head is pounding ears are ringing how can I write this song
If I can't make a change to get myself into brightness huh?
I don't even like the stuff-and we all know life is tough
I've seen too many gravestones-so f*ck it's let's light it up
Grab me an icy cup-pro now so why give up
When every song the liquor writes comes out with a Midas touch (gold)
I've walked a hundred miles now in every direction...
I can't escape the enemy in my own reflection...
And when it comes to me I don't know where my respect went...
I guess I didn't pass the test or learn from the lessons...
My mind is racing skin is clamy I'm second guessing...
If I have a purpose if there's anything destined...
Faith was shattered long ago and no one's impressed when...
You barely have the energy to get out of bed...(ahhh!)
I'm rotten through and through it's true I got me some issues
I've gotten through to you but I've been sobbin' through tissues
I've lost so much of me that I can't even explain it
There's pain inside the music cause it costs to be famous
And fame was never really even part of my aim it's
A byproduct of what I love that comes with some anguish
I love to make this music and I love how my brain fits
The words with my emotions play the strings and you bang this
Something down inside is hollow-I keep tryina hide in bottles
I keep tryina find a lot of-things in all the wrong spots
Love don't live inside the whiskey-if I go will someone miss me
Life out on the edge is risky-my times on a stopwatch
I've been running full force aiming right at my tombstone
I keep both my ears plugged up to anyone who's known
The deepest parts of my depression I'll let the blues go
Straight into the microphone and give you a new flow
Now I'm bending genres cause there's beauty in music
It heals me down deep inside I hope you can use it
To get a little peace of mind whenever the blues hit
I said it all before but never known what the use is
There's something deep inside of me that's broken the proof is
The only number I've been reading how could I do this?
I guess it's time to change now...time to let the pain out...
I've spent to long procrastinating now I'll let the rain drown...everything...
When I pour it out!