Vigils - Grinning Lyrics

Am I becoming all I swore that I would never be?
I caught a glimpse of every demon that's inside of me
Is there a pill maybe I could take, so I wouldn't have to lie awake?
I wish you'd warned me that you shed your skin, just like a snake
You make me want to rip my eyes out of my head
I swear, I'm grinning at the thought of it
And I'd rather lose my sight
Than see your filthy eyes
As they steal all the light from mine
I may be bitter, but I'm no f*cking quitter
Somehow, I always knew you'd be the first to drop the ball
And I'm no pessimist, but I predicted
This sociopathic tendencies are pretty hard to miss
You make me want to rip my eyes out of my head
I swear, I'm grinning at the thought of it
And I'd rather lose my sight
Than see your filthy eyes
As they steal all the light from mine
It's so frustrating, my heart is aching
You always said that you'd be there, but kept me waiting
I'm so frustrated, so disappointed
You always kept me waiting
And now I'm done
You make me want to rip my eyes out of my head
I swear, I'm grinning at the thought of it
And I'd rather lose my sight
Than see your filthy eyes
As they steal all the light from mine
Light from mine
It's so frustrating, my heart is aching
You always said that you'd be there, but kept me waiting