Walter the 17th - Sirens/Scars on My Wrist Lyrics

I say I don't care
But I'm crying out for help
In my mind
I been feeling so f*cked up
Felt like this such a long time
I been out here making money
I been staying on my grind
But it never helps
Happiness ain't something you can buy
Took the long way home on my drive last night
Been thinking bout you
I been thinking bout life
Feels like I'm staring in
Yeah I'm on the outside
I just can't let go
Holding on so tight
I don't think that I'm alright
I got nobody by my side
I'm really tired of being nice
I'm f*cking tired of sacrificing
It's like I can't let the light in
& I'm really feeling blinded
In my mind I'm hearing sirens

Cause It's been a long time
Since I felt alright
& I really don't know if I'll get this right
I'm just really not sure if I can hold out
Is it gonna work out?

Na na na na na na
Ouh

Scars on my wrist
I never wanted this
But I'm feeling numb
I just need to feel something
Won't you pick up?
Baby I just need your love
It's been so rough
I've got nothing left
It's been a couple years since you disappeared
& now I'm feeling weird
I'm not really here
I don't even care about you anymore
I just miss the person that I was before
I ain't found what I'm looking for
The dark times are hard to ignore
You shot me down
Struck me to the core
Oh lord

I go through the motions
My heart as big as the ocean
Lately I've been roller-coasting
Going through all these emotions
Tryna keep my options open
But I been feeling so hopeless
I been out doing the most
& I ain't seen nobody notice
I gotta focus
You know I feel like the coldest
I feel like the coldest
I had a dream and they sold it
I had a dream and they sold it
But they all bogus
I know I'm meant for this life
I ain't gonna sugar coat it
Need a promotion
My mind's a f*cking explosion
Always get buck and do dope shit
Lately my heart is so guarded
I used to be so romantic
Now I'm so hardened
Wanna rip myself apart for changing
I can't explain it
Been getting faded
Like every day
& now I just wonder why I'm this way
For better or worse
I know that I've changed
Ain't gonna front
Been dealing with pain
It won't go away
Feels like I'm insane
Girl don't go away
But don't say my name
I feel so ashamed
I always complain
& I really hate it
Maybe I'm too hard on myself
I never did feel like a model for no one
& maybe that's why that I feel like a no one
I don't wanna talk when the phone rings
& I'm so sick of saying I'm sorry to people
Cause lately been feeling so evil
Maybe I ain't meant to be here
Maybe I'm fading away
Maybe I'm fading away
I just wanna know what my fate is
I'm so afraid of being the same as the one who raised me
I need to change
I been too complacent
Came from the basement
Now we go apeshit
Looking for payment
Baby just face it
We going places
Want me to take you?
Just keep it real
We can't deal with fakeness
No no

Scars on my wrist
I never wanted this
But I'm feeling numb
I just need to feel something
Won't you pick up?
Baby I just need your love
It's been so rough
I've got nothing left
It's been a couple years since you disappeared
& now I'm feeling weird
I'm not really here
I don't even care about you anymore
I just miss the person that I was before
I ain't found what I'm looking for
The dark times are hard to ignore
You shot me down
Struck me to the core
Oh lord