Good Night Video (MV)

Moving to a new home
Driving on a new road
Tryin' to move fast but this new path is too slow
Baby in the oven
Wifey always buggin'
She's all stressed out and sick and tired of always strugglin'
Thats why we're always hustlin'
Got to pay the rent
Got more bills than billionaires got to pay our debts
Livin' pay check to pay check
Can't afford a rain check
But still the forecast is on track for a train wreck
I can't say I ain't stressed
At the same time inspite of all the misfortunes
I can't say I ain't blessed
I take less to give more
When it rains it just pours
With no umbrella to stay dry in a shit storm
I live for another day
'Til life forces priorities all on me it seems there's no other way
I just want something left when I cash a check
For food on the table with cloths on our back that's it
And a crib for my child in a bassinet
A place called home where wifey doesn't have to stress
I want a spot to handle business that's unfinished
I'm ready for more and everything that comes with it
I'll play the cards that's never been dealt
On the other hand don't want to get ahead of myself
Cause anything can happen never forget that
We walk three steps forward and four steps back
We walk three steps forward and four steps back
We walk three steps forward and four steps back
We walk three steps forward and four steps back
I'm so stressed out I'm heated and I'm pissed
And my palms are so sweaty man I need to get a grip
Before I lose every single thing I've worked for
And let the devil inside me grow a third horn
I'm at the church doors praying God'll save me
Or at least give me answers that I search for
I wish it hurt less but it hurt more
When we miscarried our plans to have a first born
No more rockabye baby
We want to sing a lullaby but not tonight baby
My son was still born and his mother cried tears of heartbreak
This pain is just something I feel
Because we planned parenthood to a start a family
But plans didn't happen ever after, happily
The pain agony you'd never expect
Most of all the experience we'll never forget
So incomes anxiety and out goes hopefulness
Another chance to give life is what I hope to get
Another shot to be a father is what I'm waitin' for
Another way to cope better than the day before
Thank God we still have each other anyway
So it could start to get easier, everyday
Cause pain heals never forget that
We walk three steps forward and four steps back
We walk three steps forwards and four steps back
We walk three steps forwards and four steps back
We walk three steps forwards and four steps back
Was hoping I can look in your eyes and say I love you, son
And watch you grow to be the man that I never was
There's nothing in this world that I would trade for you
But I'm glad you passed heaven's gate and made it through
It hurts to know you're gone but forever here
To understand the world's intentions are never clear
In this life of pain I'll never get right
I just wish I got to hold you in my arms and tell you good night
And tuck you in your crib as you sleep and just tell you good night
Watch you with your eyes closed so peaceful and just tell you good night
So before I go to sleep in my mind I always tell you goodnight
I just wish that I can tell you good night
Rest in peace
Llewellyn
Wherever you are
Forever in our hearts
We love you