Whyte Nicotyne - Light in Darkness Lyrics

I'm losing my mind, I'm not feeling fine
I lost the light in darkness, This must be the darkest when, Will it get?
I'm losing my mind, I'm not feeling fine I lost the light in darkness
This must be the darkest when, Will it get?
How will I survive?
Light in darkness, Timid and dies, Sight goes blind I've counted countless times and it feels
I'm curled up and died, Something inside drains my life
I lost the light in darkness, God I hope it gets
I never listened to a teacher as a kid, I knew deep down the school never gave a shit
Why'd they put me on a spectrum a list, And treated me like I'm a sped?
Till one day I stood up and said, F*ck you, F*ck this and this shit
Kindergarten I never had recess, First grade I started conflict with kids
In retaliation, Retribution, It's f*cking messed up what they did
Embarrassed me, Making me the target, Like Mr. Blythe said I'd be nothing
How'd I change the rules, Getting stomped in, By the fourth graders when I'm in second?
After being put on medication, They think I need counseling
My whole life I'm told I'm sick, I've been told I ain't shit
From the doctors, To therapists, Teachers, Adults and all the kids
Doctors labelled me autistic, Asperger's, They meant artistic
I get laughed at and made fun of the instant, No one saw my visions
Yeah I got dreams, But you'll tell me it's not realistic
When your life is fiction, Judging those who try like
You should mind your business, I chose this and I'm glad I'm different
I work for everything I get what's privileged?
I'm the opposition of our difference
I got bullied and learned to be self efficient with the time I'm given
I don't quit I bet you thought I did, Truth is I didn't
I work in silence and I like to stay hidden, You people don't get it
I stay true to myself with truest commitment, My appetites more than tremendous
When I say I want my revenge, I'm looking for vengeance
I'm far beyond going out to get it, Sleeping on me isn't in your best interest
I'll wake you up like you slept on your neck wrong
All of my doubters, I'll break you like Vecna, Nothing will be left here to protect ya
I'm snapping your limbs and I'm popping your eyes out, Watching your body rise, High just to let it fall
I represent the light in darkness, Through fog, You represent the dark doubt before dawn
I promise there's nothing darker than my thoughts, I could die today and not give two f*cks
I out write myself with will, I ain't giving up till the day I'm killed
They say it's pointless to say how you feel, Well how I feel is emotionally unstable
When these cocksuckers say your dreams a fable, They say what you can be
Which is not to be able to achieve what you thought as a kid
A dream sought for opportunities, You worked on it for weeks, Months, Now years
And they called you weak, It's no wonder what it's like for me
I zone out, Plug in awkward socially, ADHD, I'm sporadic
As a motherf*cking drug addict, I can't stop rap, Not yet, It's a habit
God damn it, I can't back down from something as long as I'm standing
Whyte Nicotyne sounds like he's had it, Wouldn't you know? You're the reason this happened
Backing me to a wall till I can't step it, Thinking I'ma break you're a stick, I just snapped it
I was born into chaos, Now a pandemic, I don't need COVID-19 to be the illest
I've been infected with this rap-like virus, that kills shit that's out of alignment
You don't believe me, how ironic, How the f*ck do you think this all started?
That's what I mean, This generation is retarded, No offense unless it's you, Then walk it
One thing needed, Common sense, you don't got it, Go on your phone with your fake life posting
YOLOs for all these anonymous comments, Till one, Hurts you, Then no responses
I think it's funny you live life less, I say something you expect kindness
What did you really think all life is? Clear skies with a sun shining
Rainbows don't got a pot of gold, So go cry, Bitch, I've taught myself
How to be low and not say shit, But how in the f*ck when these people caused half it?
I'm underground, They want me down, Flat to the ground
The darkness comes, No sun around, Midnight's bound
It's Gotham town, No it's Arkham now, Keep talking shit
Then the only sound will be these people's screams when I take them out
Till light in darkness comes about, No one's safe when I live off doubt
I serve this sentence to rain this drought, You've never seen such a darker cloud
And my reign won't end once I get that crown
How's that sound?