I've seen brighter days
I've seen darker months
I've tried persevering
I've tried giving up
Taken breaks from doing right so I could live it up
All the work that I put in but still wasn't enough
I'm sick of being the extra I want to be the lead
I'm tired coming off the bench I'm trying to run the league
Haunted my mind with comparison, the pride, and the greed
And if I really have the vision I want them to see
I'm trying to shock them
My only option
I got to lock in
Before I'm forgotten
I'm tired of plotting
I'm tired of flopping
No point in dropping
Cuz nobody's watching
This is the story of seeking self
The story of taking the Word of God and putting it on a shelf and leaving it
Not even reading it, kind of believing it
And expecting to see a win
That's crazy
Lord I thought these were gifts that you gave me
He said I just want you to obey me
What do you do when the vision get hazy
Call Abba he'll never leave nor forsake thee
I was trying to move too fast with no braking
I was trying to shoot for the stars with no safety
It might have felt good at first but not lately
Focused on what I could make rather than who made me
You know today might not be your day but tomorrow is
And if you really want to make it you should follow Him
You're focused on building a following
Rather than following the one who gave you the fame that you're borrowing
Trying to hold all your sorrow in
Look
You recognize your head got bigger than before
So depression made it hard for you to lift it off the floor
It's hard to release the things that you thought was yours
But God has taken it to give you more