wilson hunter - Purpose Lyrics

I could not control it
It's like I was falling in quicksand
Back in the days I had to console it
Feeling is burning can't withstand
My discorded chorus
Playing as loud as a pit band
Cuz I never seemed to have any solace
When they kick it I'm the tin can
Bottling every emotion
Oh you were mad? Didn't get the notion
I'm waiting until my life's first promotion
Devotion is what I'm gonna need to go there
But I can't be on that level
Feeling like I am the devil
The opposite of a noble peace medal
Shit is f*cking with my mental
Until I lose it
I tried not to do it
Went from nothing in my mind it was moonlit
To f*cking forgetting excuses
And I'm feeling foolish
I turn it to music
Write it down when another refuses
Then they come at me accusing
So I look down the road
I see it corrode
I keep my happy face on just for show
So they come in close
They strike me like lightning conducting
Gave my affection they ducking
Thinking it's something, it's nothing
Now I regret all my trusting
My heart covered in holes
Dipped it in glitter and gold
Just too filter out the cold
Mad forecast, killer of the marigolds
Sad overcast, this is what the prairie holds
Bad trash in my head, I kept it paroled
Then I sold my soul for sixfold
I'm free now I'm reaching for my goals
But i've seen better you can hear how I write
If really there is a god
He made em so nervous
You don't gotta be so broad
I'm just doing my service
Need to to get more cash
I gotta watch what I purchase
I been peering thru glass
I've been skimming the surface
You been coming up wordless
Always up around the furnace
Wondering who am I versus
As the demon emerges
You think that you worthless
She cut her wrist and it's hurting
I been fighting the urges
Cause I was born with a purpose