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I felt important
In Portland
Cuz we put down a mortgage
And we went to fancy dinners but your parents still paid for it

I know that
I could go back
But it would still feel so bad
I let you become everything and I hate myself for that

I didn't know
If I could go
The whole week without smoking dope
But you were always right and you always said I told you so

I didn't know how to phrase it
And I didn't think you could take it
Sitting doing research chemicals in your basement

I know what it's like
To be so far apart
From the one that you love that they're not the one that you love anymore
You didn't break any rules
But you broke my heart
So in Portland's best pizza I cried on the bathroom floor

I made the most of that situation
I fell in love on every vacation
Vermont, Detroit, Miami, San Francisco, and New Haven

I felt myself grow colder
Having fun and getting bolder
The girl am was so damn cool and you didn't even know her

You didn't think it was in my nature
But I spent my days praying for danger
For confusion, lust, my heart rate up, and another perfect stranger

I just needed something new
I got scared and then I grew
I couldn't be 22 and only know myself with you

I know what it's like
To be so far apart
From the one that you love that they're not the one that you love anymore
You didn't break any rules
But you broke my heart
So in Portland's best pizza I cried on the bathroom floor

I had to keep myself safe
I had to keep myself safe
You were gone anyway
I had to keep myself safe

I know what it's like
To be so far apart
From the one that you love that they're not the one that you love anymore
I made new rules
And I broke new hearts
And in Portland's best pizza I don't love you anymore