Wiser Observer - Only One Man Lyrics

Truthfully I'm exhausted
I'm surprised I haven't lost it
I had a friend, heart-to-heart now and then
He said, "Tuma you know my pain, if I had your brain I would've offed it"
I told him, "Don't compare suffering
Suffering's just suffering"
He was my boy, I really cared about him
Shit, He's still my boy I still pray about him
And this my same boy, I later found out
My ex-girl has some feels for
That night when I came to his room to share my pain
She hid in the bathroom behind a closed door
I know we broke up
But what the f*ck
You said you want to be friends and I ate it up
There's so much anger in me as I'm writing this
I'm sleeping alone and you both sleeping by his
And a couple days prior we sharing my bed kissing and touching
'Cause friendship was hard to grip
(What the f*ck?)
And I know f*cked up both times
But the guilt I've been caring don't justify this
You were my comfort I shared my all
How I'm scared for my sister
The stress on my mom
Four robberies, it keeps piling on
I need time to breath, can I please get a pause

I'm only one man
I'm only one man
I'm only one man
I'm only one man
I'm only one man
I'm only one man

Four robberies, man what the f*ck?
Is it my distance from God or I'm out of luck?
What else can it take, my minds now at stake
Assuming last year was my worst was my mistake
First time was after a show, my stomach was gunpoint
Second time walked away with fingers with cut joints
Third time, second break up, knife point took my phone
Fourth time, four guys, school bag with what I own
I've got noting left to give
I've got no more hope to give
We only care when it's convenient
What a way to live
That's why I had to suck it up and go visit my friend
In her hospital bed
But it's hard be there for somebody when you feel you got nobody and the bottom your soul
Feeling like death
Only one stronger than me is my little sister
Because she don't rely on any liquor
The things that I know, the things that I hold
Mypain on my track's the shit's getting old
The pain in my heart that's all that I know
My path's not on track and my mom's getting old
Hide your tears and be a man
But how I'm supposed to be a father figure that I never had

I'm only one man
I'm only one man
I'm only one man
I'm only one man
I'm only one man
I'm only one man

I'm a victim, I'm an asshole, I'm a king
I'm bipolar, drown disorders in a drink
I'm so paranoid like all the time
Now it's like what is next now, where is the line?
Everyone's life got up and downs
But my downs aren't spaced out
Can I get time to shed a tear
Just some time to pull a frown
F*ck
Love from friends I appreciate it
But the Tuma you knew has deviated
Look in the mirror, practice my smile
Scream in my sleep, terrors at night
Half a bottle of gin I sleep for four hours
My mood's so erratic I'm having no power
Mama, my sister they still keep up the fight
I can't even say everything's gon' be alright
'Cause everybody going through something
Hope you're brave enough to say something
'Cause everybody else, everybody else keeps bluffing
I've been through a lot
Stronger than most
I drink through my problems
Weaker than most
God what did I do, what did I do
But I can't blame a God that I hardly ever pray to

I'm only one man
I'm only one man