wntr06 - what's real (feat. yiru) Lyrics

Staring into space thinkin' of my past mistakes
But I'm lookin' at the clock and I know time's at stake
If I could just go back to when I was a child
When I was five, life seemed so much more on my side
But I don't know her anymore, it's been a while
I wanna go back to those calm days
Not lyin' I'm crying
She's always crying in her head or on her pillow
She'll never know the signs that God's been tellin' her so

Take in the sunshine
I said that it was all mine
Won't take back the times that we had with you
All these assumptions don't mean it's true
But when I look back, hope it is with you

What's wrong, what did I really do?
What's real, what does it mean to me?

What does it mean to me??

How much longer will I have to live like this,
When will I leave?
How much stronger will I have to make myself,
When will I be free?

Too much to take in
Did this in a hurry
Don't know when I'll see you again