Slacking and lacking at ballpoint my penmanship writing
To escape the blue in my mind sea as my words run deep
(I promised I'd be a better me)
Collecting dust, and cobwebs a vacuum for my head
Organizing on white spaces laying in a OCD made bed
Collecting souls in my shoes trying not to be laced up
So I keep my tongue in my mouth and watch my laces hang out
Cause they're always down for the addy
But keep their addiction concealed, and that's just canny
I wish I still had my great granny
She hurt me young so the world wouldn't slap me
Most times I'm glad my mom never had me cause now she can live to see me happy
Trips on a plane i can't remember being on, solving a slope ex's put on a patron
All knowing but I could never be a mason, so i keep myself aligned now from meditation
We live, we learn, the past we burn, the future we yearn, foundation stern
I tapped out of the game for a while
Let the world beat me and the beating was vile
Tiptoed around problems like Jackson stepping on tiles
I was a mess, so I put my shit in a pile
Labeled my worth, so I know where it goes
Starting to learn when to say yes and say no
Change is hard but the growth it'll show
Been a while since I've seen myself glow
Been a while, and the process was slow
But now I know patience and I know where it goes
We live, we learn, the past we burn, the future we yearn, foundation stern