Xerophyte - S.EP (feat. UNR Melody) Lyrics

I'm lost in my insecure thoughts
Lack of self love with a f*ckin cold that I caught
Attached to my heart but masked with smiles
Making you think I'm okay but that's my profile
I keep inside some emotions I'm ashamed to reveal
Rather have you think I'm weird than to know how I feel
Had therapy a few times but that shit doesn't work
Cause I'm selective on information to give and don't need their concerns
I made some friends but feel that they hate me
Pretend to like me and watch our bonds fading
I always wanted to kill myself but scared to do it
So the way I cope with it is to put it in music

This anger suppression will lead to madness
Gotta let it out before you're damaged
To the point of developing a bad habit
Just channel your feelings and find a balance

I've been struggling with emotions, just keep it inside
But they're stronger than I thought, as time passes by
I act like I'm happy, but I can't stop crying
Nobody's here to hear me, so I keep on lying
Almost convinced myself that I was okay
But I never was, I still f*cking hate my face
Not worthy of love or respect from others
I shouldn't be born, I deserve to suffer
I'm a piece of shit who wants to be better
But my soul's never satisfied, write a suicide letter no
Acceptance is the medicine, suppression's the conflict
I need to relax and let go of this nonsense

This anger suppression will lead to madness
Gotta let it out before you're damaged
To the point of developing a bad habit
Channel your feelings and find a balance