Xhaos - 24 Lyrics

I used to think by 24, that I would have like so much more
Homes in different cities and a wife I really do adore
Cars and fancy things galore, come on babe just lock the door
Feel you up in bed and roll you over on the silky floor
Hip-hop doesn't love you, 'less you talking 'bout your bank account
So every time I mention money, I know it's a fake amount
Labels told me sell my soul, drop the lyrics make it bounce
Rappers told me lose your mind, drop some yellow, take an ounce
Hold up wait, all the walls, all the walls are caving in
Trails of rainbows shooting from my moving hands and fingertips
Pause, breathe, strike a pose, grab a book and microphone
Turning every page and all the words are turning into crows
Flying around my room, I chase them, open the door to let them out
Can't believe my eyes, I'm standing right in front of Mickey Mouse
Hold up, wait, that's Mickey Mouse? What you doing in my house?
Angel choir right behind me singing, "Boy, you make us proud"
I don't ever wanna seem scared
I still don't even think I'm prepared
To handle everything that we've shared
Fallin' down, I'd rather be there
Said I don't ever wanna seem scared
I still don't even think I'm prepared
To handle everything that we've shared
Fallin' down, I'd rather be there
Oh, oh, oh
Sometimes I listen to my favorite songs I've ever written
Just to remind myself I'm talented and kinda gifted
People give me compliments, they always say my music cool
Just tell me that I suck at writing, you and I both know it's true
Everything I say, everything I say misunderstood
I always come with good intents, but you think I'm up to no good!
Tell a joke, nobody laughs, buy a gift, they think it's whack
Defend myself, and someone's mad, leave the room, and they're all glad, aye
Lifting Up has been delayed
And Letting Go has been detained
Always feeling out of place, I don't belong, it's not my space
Feeling like a foreigner, almost like I'm in TJ
I'm dying laughing, dying laughing, I'm dying laughing
My friends around the table, joking, and talking, and laughing
I'm dying laughing, here's my phone, that's my better side
Until I realize I'm alone, and I'm dead inside
I don't ever wanna seem scared
I still don't even think I'm prepared
To handle everything that we've shared
Fallin' down, I'd rather be there
Said I don't ever wanna seem scared
I still don't even think I'm prepared
To handle everything that we've shared
Fallin' down, I'd rather be there
Oh, oh, oh
You was once a person I looked up to
Now it seems I only look up to the darkness lately
I used to put like everyone above you
I'm in the clouds and I still look at you like you done made me
You never cared... never listened... massively... massively gifted...
Massively gifted, you practically shifted, from "never heard a song" to now you actively listen
I'm feeling bad for this kid, really had a knack for this s
Masterly slipped, into the realm of actually did it
But all he ever really wanted was some cash for his gift
A few fans, a few tours, a nice house for the kids
But now he's gone and all his brilliance taken fast taken quick
You never acknowledged him, never thought he had it in him!
He needed you!
And all you ever cared about was yourself!
He came to you with problems, now you pick 'em up off the shelf
Dust 'em off like that gone bring him back, just harbor the loss
His blood is on your hands, don't even bother washing them off