Xion Michael - Addiction Lyrics

My demons callin'
Reality too much, man
I need some solace
A little escape is what Ima need regardless
I swear to God, f*ck everybody who thinks that I'm a
Piece of shit
I never wanna believe the nonsense, but
I f*ckin' hate myself
All I wanna do is f*ckin' hang myself
Put these drugs in my system to entertain myself
My father keeps sayin' my damn brain needs help, like
"William, why you do yourself like this?"
"Listen when I'm talkin, boy I'm sick of this shit"
"Damn William, you know your little brother Xion looks up to you"
"I ain't ever raise you like this"
But I don't ever listen to him (Nope)
Wish I could get through it
Wish I could be more of an influence
But I'm too caught up under the influence
So Ima keep doin' what I've been doin'
Find excuses why I've been losin'
Project my rage on these little stupid
Motherf*ckers who think they better than me
F*ck it, Ima need a plug to sell me some weed
Pills, coke, maybe some meth and some lean
Anything to make me forget that I'm me
You know what I mean
At least I hope, f*ck
Need to drink, shit
Need to smoke
To ease my pain, don't need my brain
Don't need my soul
Just leave me alone
Just leave me alone
Just leave me alone

(F*ck)
(Motherf*ckers need to stop callin' me)
(Stop calling me)
(Ah f*ck, leave me alone)

Hello, it's your demons callin'
Reality too much, man?
You need some solace?
A little escape is what you need regardless?
Well, gimme your soul, Ima let you see nirvana
I keep you afloat when the boat is sinking, promise
I give you a coat when the cold is creepin' on ya
Gimme your focus, f*ck everything around ya
Lemme direct your life, it would be an honor
Your father keeps sayin' your damn brain needs help, like
"William, why you do yourself like this?"
"Listen when I'm talkin, boy I'm sick of this shit"
"Damn William, you know your little brother Xion looks up to you"
"I ain't ever raise you like this"
But you don't ever listen to him
You rather consume
Just how I taught you
Take advantage of what you've been given and shit on your opportunity
And hustle
Hustle these drugs makin' a buck
Don't know why your family makin' a fuss
Don't give a f*ck about givin' a f*ck
Don't give a damn about givin' a shit
Just hit this
You ain't addicted, this ain't addiction
Just hit this
Your inhibitions are being lifted
Just hit this
Holy shit there's nothin to hit, you need to fix this and get your fix it's
A pain in the ass grabbin' a bag of this shit so
Jack you some cash from your Dad and your sibilings
And nigga hit this, nigga hit this
(Nigga hit this)
You been addicted, you been addicted
This is addiction

(Death smiles at us all but al la man can do is smile back)
(Think of yourself as dead. You have lived your life
Now, take what's left and live it properly)