XX RIINX VIIRI - Painful Bliss Lyrics

Feel like my time is running out
So here I am, tryna hit all the bases now
Before I'm put six spaces in the ground
All my friends, yeah they juss strangers now
Only stuck around for the f*cking clout
All you motherf*ckers tryna take a plate away from me
Stay the f*ck away from me
You weren't there when I was feeling down
So when I come up, don't expect to get a thing from me
You are not a friend to me
Anon comments tryna tell me to quit this music shii
That I don't have what it takes, that I'll never influence shii
Maybe they're right, never been the type to do this shii
But on my first song, I got dms from suicidal kids
Telling me that I saved they life
Gave them something to listen to late at night
Cause of my music, they chose to live they life
So I ain't backing down till the day I f*cking die
Oh, okay, here we go again
Pockets empty, and the rent is due again
Maybe I should put the pen down, start doing interviews and then
Maybe have a job, maybe go to college
Maybe I'd get through this shii
Hell, even my family couldn't see my dreams
"Music will never pay the bills, you are wasting time"
Give a f*ck about the time, where were you when I needed time
Now you're gone, I'll admit that I cried
To be honest, I don't know what I'm doing
Acting like I have the answers, but I am so f*cking clueless
And I won't lie, I don't know if I can make it through this
But I made a promise to my baby girl
For you, I would move mountains
I'm sorry I wasnt there when it counted
Me and your mother had some f*cked up things about us
And I'm so sorry that it put a wedge between us
I'm sorry