THE XXINFINITY - XX (Freestyle) Lyrics

You know I been thinkin' bout my distant visions lately
Looking to the sky and asking why he hasn't paid me
My hard works in every verse, the bright lights becoming shady
Everything you do is all for you and yet it's still a maybe
Not a hard life but could never be a normal kid
Visions of success drown my head when the day begins
Life's a game of game chess and the best will kill to take the grid
So raise up my chest
I do anything to take a win
As more time passes by suicide consumes my mind
The fear of thinking this is it, this is all I'll ever leave behind
Recollection, deep depressions, heavy tides destroy my mind
Attempted pride in every stride, my vision wide, the future mine
Now I'm getting pissed off, been nine f*cking hours
Working on my words just to climb a social tower
Built by man, all by hand, so one may overpower
I assume I will bloom, message spread like wildflower
I been sneaking out the house every night smoking weed now
Mind up in the sky wondering when I'm gonna be found
Tears in my eyes when I realize the distance
Wondering why I could never dream of smaller f*cking visions
Why would you live a normal life with something nearer
What you want is yours and it can't be any clearer
Don't choke on a hope cause your doubt is its killer
And a true God is sitting right in front of you in the mirror
They tell me "young boy you're only twenty years old"
But a year in this life ain't a day in my soul
I ain't seeking any bitches, money, diamonds
Or gold because there's too many trapped souls lost in the mold
I look up to dead legends who already checked into heaven, I'm talking:
Cliff, Cash, Fred, Bob, Eazy, Elvis, said it
Mike, Prince, Nip, Kurt, Hank, and Hendrix and then
Mac, X, Peep, Pac, Big, and Lennon
All the pain deep within my brain brings me to my knees now
Cause life a f*cking dick I ain't no bitch so I bite down
Blood drain my veins, ain't no words left to say
In hopes of a brighter tomorrow, I'll give you my today
I have to make this shit work and it ain't for a city
This for anyone that's ever felt the fear of failure with me
So God if you're real and you really f*cking hear me
Help me go the distance, make a difference

The xxinfinity