Young Gatt - When I Close My Eyes Lyrics

[Verse 1:]
Uh
Yea
Yea
U kno
Sometimes
Lie awake at night
N I think bout my life
I realise some things ain't gonna change
Whether I live a wrong or right, it don't matta
All my life, all my days
Seems like, all we ever felt was pain
Never had shit
Was mad at my mom n dad
So I, did bad shit
Remember times, in the hall in the county
Thot I lost it all
Had no love around me
Thugged out with tatoos all over
Told myself f*ck everybody else
Cus I'm a soldier
Time goes on
Everybody grows
And that's how it goes
In the end, without no family
Prolly die alone
Or end up in the [? ]
Insanity turnin into reality
Your best friend turnin into your enemy
How can this be?
Lost everything I had
Went from good to bad
I'm in the hood
Most of the time I'm sad
So I can't smile
And they wondor why I'm so crazy now
Some hate me now
Sometimes I feel like I wanna die
Tears from my eyes when I hear my mamma cry
Mom, I sad some things that've hurt you
But deep down inside, you know I love you
But it's hard, I didn't make it far in skool
Just started livin got me swimmin in a whirlpool
Dreaming, sleep walking
Talkin bout life try'na search for the meanin
Nobody but god can explain this pain
If I close my eyes forever will it be the same?

[Chorus:]
Days go by
Wondor why
Just stayin inside
It goes away
When I close my eyes
I hope the skies never change
But still will it always be the same?

[Verse 2:]
Growin up, I wasn't alone
Had two older brothers
My steppin stones
And when times got rough
My mom steal'd everythin she could
Just to make it good for us
Remember, came to Cali
From a bus from New Orleans
Didn't have much all I had was dreams
[? ] jeans wore to skool bout twice a week
Hard rice to eat
No socks on my feet
Sometimes, 50 cents at lunch time
But nobody touches mine
Was blind to the roof
Didn't kno bout the [? ]
Now it's on
My friends call me YG
We ran with the gang all we did was fight
Was small, so we carried guns at night
Got sent to the hall
Did about six months
Came back out hit the double blunt
Now I'm thinkin no E's
Kickin with with big OG's
All the hoes know me
The police got their eyes on me
And the folks, from the other side
Despise me
Why me?
I guess I'm comin up now
Before I didn't speak english
Didn't give a f*ck now
But now, I know this game
I can know my own name
My boy [? ] with the whole game
Yeah, like cocaine
No more tears
But I can still feel my pain
Migraine headaches
Thinkin about my death date
Should I try to change
Before it's too late
Get out the gang
That's what my mamma tells me
Too much gummy in your life's not healthy
So god help me
I wanna change
But if I close my eyes forever
Will it be the same?

[Chorus:]
Days go by
Wondor why
Just stayin inside
It goes away
When I close my eyes
I hope the skies never change
But still will it always be the same?

[Verse 3:]
I'll be there by your side
When the sun rise
And I'll be there with you
After you die
That's what god tells me
Day in and day out
So I'm thinkin
Maybe there's a way out
[? ] madness
It takes a bottle of hennessy
Just to relieve my sadness
Last year, my older brother came out the pen
This year, my other brother went in
(damn)
Seems like there's no end
To this life [? ]
Mixed up bad
Like dust and wind
Wish I had another chance to go to skool
They thot I was outnumbered
I'm a show fools
Them hater hoes
I know they get mad
When they see me mad
Sittin like potatoes
Okay though
It's all ready though
Don't f*ck with no [? ] hoe
Just pay me dough
And I'll say
See ya later hoe
Cus if you stop for a bitch
She'll break you
Take your heart
And cut it for what she gave you
So keep [? ]
If hate don't kill you then love will
I've been above that hill
Too much stress
Can make a man go insane
I stand in the middle
Hoping I can maintain
Relaxin
I came here responsible
For my reactions
Physco passion
Pumpin in my heart
And start takin lives
Holding court in the streets
Cus they never takin me alive
Tell me can you fell my pain?
I wanna close my eyes forever
But will it all be the same?

[Chorus: x2]
Days go by
Wondor why
Just stayin inside
It goes away
When I close my eyes
I hope the skies never change
But still will it always be the same?

(When I close my eyes)