WHY Video (MV)

Why?
I wonder why?
I'm loosing my mind
And deep inside I really feel like
I'm about to lose control
C4 on my chest
I know I'm blessed, but I'ma blow
I know that ain't right
But F*ck this pain bitch let's gets get HI
Shit
I'm bout to pour me up a pint
A lot of bullshit on my mind
But I just got to let it go
I know god knows best
He know what I carry on my soul
I know that ain't right but f*ck this pain bitch let's get HI

I got pain I'll never show
I know some shit they'll never know
I was So scared to face my self
I was at the point I couldn't grow
I be my myself when I'm alone
Can't get to comfortable at home
Plus I don't really trust nobody
That's why you'll catch me on my own
Respect the one check on me daily
Even thoe a Nigga grown
And you can't tell no one yo secrets
Or you bound to get exposed
Paranoid I'm always reachin
I'm fightin my demons with a pole
What if my family x me out or I get set up by the broz
When karma hit
I did some shit
That's Gone make it back fasho
I hit some liks and did some shit was Spinning shit just like the globe
I got brothers down the road
And they ain't never comming home
And I got brother on parole
But I'm just glad they made it home
And it Money over bitches
CANT LET THEM TAKE ME OUT MY ZONE
Can't get to caught up in these women
They gone throw me off fasho
So Stay focused on my hustle
I'm Out side serving them O'z
Day shift I work the block
Night shift I work the stove
Shit I barley get some sleep
I be so focused on that load
I'm Open 24/7
You can always hit my phone
You can. Wake me out my sleep if I don't answer hit doe
Road racing for that money
I just prayed I make it home

Why
I wonder why
I'm so sick and tired
But my poker face is on so you will Never see me fold
Play the cards I'm dealt
So I can weather any storm
Know that shit ain't right
But f*ck this pain bitch let's get
High
Why?
I wonder why?
I'm loosing my mind
And deep inside I really feel like
I'm about to lose control
C4 on my chest
And I know I'm blessed, but I'm about Blow
I know that ain't right
But F*ck this pain bitch
Let's gets get HI
I'm TRING to get to rich to fight
I need a condo in the sky
I'm TRING to get so f*cking rich
They think I made a sacrifice
These niggas really think they lit
Till I blow out the candle light
Open yo mind and close yo eyes
Ill give yo vision a new site
Now close yo mind open yo eyes
You see I really lead the blind
One of a kind
Put that on shine
No1 alive can dim my light
One thang for certain I got a purpose
I been searching for a sign
I hope my kids can meet eachother
Way before the day I die
Luna got two older siblings
And she need em in her life
My babymomma let a Nigga claim my son and that ain't right
And Shay just took my daughter from me
Like I ain't need her in my life
She did some shit she shouldn't have Did
But 2 wrongs don't make a right
My heart so cold it's in the fridge
My back so scarred up from the knives
I was born to go hard I stayed down and I survived
2 things for certain I know I'm destined so it's gonna take some time
I done been through so much shit
That you would think I lived twice

Why
I wonder why
I'm loosing many and deep inside I really feel like I'm about to loose control
C4 on my chest I know I'm blessed but ima blow