Young MA - Yak Thoughts Lyrics

This ain't even like sober thoughts
This is like yak thoughts, man
It's like really real shit, man

Uh
Smokin' and drinkin', drinkin' and smokin'
Hopin' for hope, but I'm hopeless
Too much distractions, I'm losin' my focus
Too much pain, can barely notice the beauty of things
Too much mental commotion, man
I'm tryin' to get back to the way I was
I'm tired of escapin', I'm tired of the drugs
I be havin' these relations but hidin' my love (damn)
And instead of chasin', I'm like, "That bitch is a dub"
Uh, feelin' the need to keep my heart on freeze
Suffocatin' my feelings, instead of lettin' them breathe
Knowin' I'm hurtin' inside but act like shit is a breeze
'Cause my heart is too heavy to wear that shit on my sleeve
I stand tall, but I sit on that throne like a Kween
Prayin' is the only time I ever get on my knees
These niggas really afraid of me, this is what I believe (mm-hmm)
You can hate, but don't play with me, I keep one with a beam (grrt)
Paranoid, ever since I seen my brother dead (damn)
Observin' niggas, yeah, that's why I'm always one ahead
Tryna get these evil thoughts out of my f*ckin' head
It ain't normal when you gotta bring your gun to bed, real shit

Damn
I can't even sleep without it, man
That's a different type of paranoia, man
You don't understand that pain, man
That fame, man, that fame, man, listen
We still on timin', you feel me?

Ayy, uh
Told my fans to pray for me because I'm losin' it (pray for me)
Ain't just drinkin' the Henny now, I'm abusin' it (damn)
I don't even get a buzz because I'm used to it (damn)
In other words, I feel numb, I'm immune to it
The relationship with my Mother ain't been good lately (mommy)
That's probably why I'm always fightin' with my old lady (yo, mommy)
And I'm too thorough to ever let a ho play me
If I'm loyal and she cheat, I'd probably go crazy (facts)
Mentally been on my own lately (huh?)
Man, y'all don't know lately (huh?)
I kinda been out of my zone lately
No shows lately, ain't been on the road lately (damn)
Gettin' high 'cause I've been low lately
All this COVID shit, I'm over it (facts)
This new election, I don't know with it (mm)
I'm kind of skeptical
But this America, you gotta, mm
Shut up and go with it
The government, ain't no controllin' it, huh?

Ain't no controllin' that, man
Ha, you just gotta live through it, man
It's life
Know what I mean?
It's where we live, man

Uh
Circle gettin' smaller, money gettin' taller
F*ck who you are, I'm judgin' you by your aura
No doorman, it's Young M.A who open doors up (facts)
I built my brand from the floor up (facts)
Came from the bottom, made some hundreds then I doubled my commas (mm-hmm)
Went from wearin' white tees, to cashin' out on designers
But still rock white tees, still humble, I promise (mm-hmm)
But I'm all about that green like Hennessy and Hpnotiq
Huh, I'm like incredible Hulk when I'm walkin' (huh?)
If you talk about me when I see you, ain't no talkin' (huh?)
I had a heart, then I lost it, I've been hurt too often (damn)
Playin' defense with my heart, no more playin' offense (nope)
God first, I can't let the Devil get to me
I will never change if I keep drinkin' this Hennessy
But I would never lose, because I know this shit was meant for me
And bro I know you gone, but I still need you to live for me (I need you)
It's the realist shit I ever wrote
If I don't say it in my music, you would never know (never know)
Like this hundred racks I'm holdin', I would never fold (never)
Goin' back broke, that's a place I'll never go (never)

I'm never goin'
Never go broke again
Can never lose
Told 'em, "I can never lose" (told 'em, "I can never lose")
Told 'em, "I can never lose" (told 'em, "I can never lose")
Told 'em, "I can never lose" (told 'em, "I can never lose")
Can never lose (can never lose)