Yrbk - Decisive Lyrics

I don't wanna feel so down in the dirt
I don't wanna wear a frown for every time I get hurt
I don't wanna make decisions when my soul is indecisive
I don't wanna force the nature if I hope to be enlightened
I don't wanna be ashamed, don't wanna be scared
Don't wanna see my success and feel like I'm not even there
I don't wanna stand still and be nervous to speak my mind
I don't wanna desire love but be nervous by what I'll find
I don't wanna hold it in, I don't wanna miss the marker
I don't wanna add the weight onto myself and make it harder
I don't wanna get older and wish that I had done it different
I don't wanna overthink it and ruin what I've been given
I don't wanna live a life where I'm the reason that it's dying
I don't wanna stare at others and feel like I'm barely trying
Because I am, and I should give myself a bit more credit
Cause the only way your heart will go under is if you let it

It's all inside of your head
You might wish you were dead
You might have nowhere to go
But if you learn to take it step by step
You might be surprised with what you get
You're living under nobody else's life but your own
You ain't gotta make no excuses
Cause someone's always got it much worse
At a point you'll get so sick of feeling useless
And you learn to move on even though it hurts
I've given up too much to back down now
I've given too much love to crack that frown
And I know
That this won't be the end
Even if it feels that way

I don't wanna die alone because I'm lonely
I don't want too many people in this world to really know me
I don't wanna baby you and pat your head for your pleasure
I don't wanna have the best and still believe there's something better
I don't wanna be conceited and naive to my ego
I don't wanna sell my soul for a c note
And I don't wanna tell you my truth and act like it's really not important
I don't want you in my life if you don't have the spine to support it
And I never want you thinking that my word isn't promised
Or think for a f*cking second that I'd ever be dishonest
I don't wanna have to turn away my cheek in times of patience
I don't want external properties to validate my greatness
I don't wanna quit on you especially when the times are tough
I want to be part of the reason you remember you're enough
I would kill to be the water that's overflowing your cup
And be the reason that you still believe in love
Cause I don't wanna have to wake up in the morning with regret
I need to learn to keep evolving, even if it's making me upset
And bet, I got my moments where I know I'm not a ten
But at least I ain't making the same mistakes I used to then
I'll be damn if I pretend, and dead if I can't adapt
Be man enough to accept it when I have to face the facts
That it doesn't have to go my way for me to keep commitments
Be faithful to what I speak and fill my heart up with forgiveness
Cause this is just too much

It's all inside of your head
You might wish you were dead
You might have nowhere to go
But if you learn to take it step by step
You might be surprised with what you get
You're living under nobody else's life but your own
You ain't gotta make no excuses
Cause someone's always got it much worse
At a point you'll get so sick of feeling useless
And you learn to move on even though it hurts
I've given up too much to back down now
I've given too much love to crack that frown
And I know
That this won't be the end
Even if it feels that way