Yeah my pains deep running through my mind at night so I can't sleep
I cant see the bigger picture it ain't hd
And I just don't understand why this had to be
Life's been really hard on me I been feeling weak
Only time I feel alive's when I'm f*cked up
Knew that shit would be alright lit the blunt up
Sippin Hennessy on ice fill my cup up
Just to get me through the night yeah
My daddys locked up in the pin my mommas our here doing dope
Guess it is just what it is I done lost all of my hope
I been staring at the ceiling I been feeling all alone
What the f*ck is stability I been out here on my own yeah aye
I been living house to house
They let me crash the couch
Daddy locked up in the pin
Mamma not around
I would get jealous of families
It had me feeling down
Cuz that was something that I wanted but I couldn't have
I been searching something other then getting cash
Yeah I can't change that though
It might be something I can't find
But I'ma chase that dough
If gods giving me a test I hope I ace that hoe
Yeah my pains deep running through my mind at night so I can't sleep
I cant see the bigger picture it ain't hd
And I just don't understand why this had to be
Life's been really hard on me I been feeling weak
Only time I feel alive's when I'm f*cked up
Knew that shit would be alright lit the blunt up
Sippin Hennessy on ice fill my cup up
Just to get me through the night yeah
I seen my father get shot up just at the age of 9
It's been Replaying like a movie over in my mind
That day I swear I won't forget cuz it's the cause of this
I Seen him layed out in the grass losing consciousness
And I thank god that he survived he said he was gonna die
We was put into the system every night I'd lay and cry
Swear It made my heart so cold I even started blaming god
Yeah aye I even started blaming god like
Why the hell you let this happen to us
Me and my siblings we got split up how'd this happen to us
I turned to writing down my pain just to get me through this
That's why at times I'm m.i.a because I'm doing music
Yeah my pains deep running through my mind at night so I can't sleep
I cant see the bigger picture it ain't hd
And I just don't understand why this had to be
Life's been really hard on me I been feeling weak
Only time I feel alive's when I'm f*cked up
Knew that shit would be alright lit the blunt up
Sippin Hennessy on ice fill my cup up
Just to get me through the night yeah