Still Got Thoughts of Suicide Video (MV)

I don't wanna hear you lie, say it's alright
I still got thoughts of suicide every damn night
I know you know the shit too
But I could never trust you
Stay up late cause of the fight, reach a compromise
I know you got a good side, but you ain't all nice
Yeah, you love to cut through
But you know I do too

I remember the first time
Staying up all night
Four hours on facetime
I know it felt right
And you know it felt right
But I'm still the bad guy
I'm still the same type

I'm still the same type
I know you hate life
You know I hate mine
I sleep through the daylight
I'm wasting all my time
So what I do last night
I had too many Mai Tai's
And my stomach don't feel right
Starting to let go
Of the shit that kept me low
Building some confidence
I can't tell what the problem is
I'm not making any progress
Lost all the cockiness
But it's not over yet
Let's just get through the turbulence

I don't wanna hear you lie, say it's alright
I still got thoughts of suicide every damn night
I know you know the shit too
But I could never trust you
Stay up late cause of the fight, reach a compromise
I know you got a good side, but you ain't all nice
Yeah, you love to cut through
But you know I do too

Should I go back home, I don't think that's where I belong
Did I overstay my welcome, did I cry too long
Did you finally realize that I ruined your whole life
Leave me here to die, just don't lead me on
Just don't lead me on, don't say that it's all gone
I been calling, like, can you turn your phone on
I know I stay dumb, faded when the day comes
I bet you hate me, you don't even gotta say nun

If you call I'll call you right back
I don't think you like that
I don't know you like that
(I don't know you like that)
(I don't know you like that)

I don't wanna hear you lie, say it, say it's alright
I still got thoughts of suicide every damn night
I know you know the shit too
But I could never trust you
Stay up late cause of the fight, reach a compromise
I know you got a good side, but you ain't all nice
Yeah, you love to cut through
But you know I do too