August 1st Video (MV)

Yuh
Now put this image in your brain
Its my life and it's my pain
It's the story of a little boy who grew up to be me I didn't start off in the streets
Yeah this little boy he's immigrated from the Middle East
Let me tell you bout that region its the belly of the beast
Raised by two parents he's a proud Lebanese
Holds his pride in his soul and he spits it on his beats
But there's depression in his life and it sucks him like a leech
Financially and legally unstable and insecure
Life was good until exposed to so much pain and so much hurt
Now he's prayin every day and night and prayin in the church
It's feelin like a cold night and the raven takes its perch
Whats this sadness you may ask
Why you always feel like trash
Don't go knockin at the party just so you could come and crash
Nah, nah, listen, listen
Now let's start off with the stress
So much ridin on his shoulders so much tightness in his chest
Fam expectin nothin but the money makin and success
Academic expectations keep on workin till you dead
Go to college like your brother go on go and get that bread
Immigrated to this country just so you could get ahead
Sacrificing everything so that my children can be fed
Now there's some people in his life
That he's lost because of fights
Tom foolery and hangin out with the wrong type
Oppressive stigmas and tryna climb to the top of the social ladder
But what if I told you little fool that thats the wrong ladder?
Its leaning on the wrong wall
Youre gonna climb your way up just to face the next fall
Do you remember the time you cried in the bathroom stall
When you felt you had no one and wanted to end it all??
Homies backstabbed you turned on you everybody's fake
Kids would kill just to live in popularity's sake
Now this girl
She came into his life
Takin all the pain away and make it feel alright
Fallin so in love that she's a beacon shes a light
A couple so attached, dated for some time and then she broke it in a night
One day she said she love him then the next she's not in sight
Now he's depressed
Now he's sad
Now his heart and his soul go bad
When she left she took a fraction of his heart in her possession
Flipped the switch and ran away and then they lost all their connection
Yeah she did it in a couple days she lied about affection
Then he showed her that he's hurting showed emotional expression
Made it seem a different way how bout what happened to obsession
Girl got away so happy doesnt care hes in depression
That whole relationship, did you really love him? Did you really lie?
I guess we'll never know, cause our memories will die
I hope you don't forget beautiful moments that we had
I wish they would continue but you left them in the past
I fold my hands and pray to God for him to give you back
He wrote some poems for that girl but then he threw them in the trash
When she broke his heart he told himself that that chick is the last
But his heart is just too big that's why it broke apart so fast
So much emptiness his heart is filled with only memories
Now he's hooked on substances and numbs his pain by smokin weed
He sits alone and cries all night then goes sips on Hennessey
Then wipes the tears off of his face and cuts his wrists until he bleeds
Now he's hooked on substances and numbs his pain by smokin weed
He sits alone and cries all night then goes sips on Hennessey
Then wipes the tears off of his face and cuts his wrists until he bleeds
Does it looking for an outlet to escape his misery
Yuh, yuh, yuh
August first
My day of birth
Am I blessed or am I cursed