Zexus - 18 Lyrics

Another f*cking year
I had a lot of things to do but had a lot of fear
I'm fearing what they hearing discontinues the cheering
And everybody realizes i am nothing to see and

I tries so hard
I tried so f*cking hard
I tried to be the best i can but didn't get to far
I tried to be the happy me but i just fell apart
I'm needing them to understand that its just really f*cking hard
Its really f*cking hard when you don't know what is next
Its really f*cking hard when you're annoyed of your friends
Lately i ain't wanna chill with them i might just cut them off
Maybe i'm just overthinking i cant handle all these thoughts

I fell in love with you i don't know what we are doing
And i hope you chase the dreams you always dreamt of pursuin
I hope you find another guy who could be who i really couldn't
I just hope you i love you and you left me in the ruins
But i'm moving on
And i don't need you anymore
Remember thinkin back you had me cryin on the floor
My heart is f*cking shattered even shattered then before
I gave you all i had and you just left me at the door

Yeah
Its all so negative right
Gotta focus positive with all the things in my life
I just entered a contest and thought i did alright
A bunch of people telling me i'm gonna take flight
I got so much support and people standing with me
There's more to life then drinking getting high with the weed
There's lots of stuff I've missed stuff i couldn't see
But depression really summarized my whole 17

17
17

18
Aye Yeah
I'm having a lot to learn
Having a lot of hurt
Having a lot of it gavem a thought of it and its a curse
Damn it's a curse
(Damn)
Damn its a curse
And I've been feeling the worst
I have a feeling this year is a given and i'm gonna get it no matter the hurt
Aye Yuh
And i know its my time
I spill my heart with lyrics and whatever's inside
I put my soul inside a beat you'll find
I'm 18 f*cking years and i'm a legend disguised

Aye
People claim to f*cking know me
Y'all don't even know shit that's in my backstory
My friends they even say shit they think they f*cking know me
They don't know shit cause i'm a very private person
I'm starting to distance because no one should change for me
I am humbled by everyone who just wants me to succeed
I do this for you, me no matter if bleed
Another f*cking year i'm finally 18