(Neglect the rules, respect the codes, follow the guidelines. Life's been ugly so far but these are fine times...)
I woke up and I couldn't see nothing
Mum had pain in abundance
Seen fiends hold needles like vaccines
And all the drunkards passed out in their own piss, it's pungent
I grew up in the filth and disgusting
Mum put frubes in the lunches
Mum good news
Your son got a few dudes
And they're wanting to be his friends
I needed them to function
Please pretend
I knew I couldn't be
Everything you wanted me to be
9 years old
I knew I couldn't read
Daddy's anger running in my genes
I'm f*cking up
I'm lashing out
She's asking why her baby boy is acting out?
I'm closing up
I'm closing up
God forgive me if I lose my cool
I don't wanna get held back at school
I knew that art was an avenue
To get a start in this life we choose
God forgive me if I lose my cool
I don't wanna get held back at school
I knew that art was an avenue
To get a start in this life we choose
(You can't even scratch the surface because you're weak, you don't even pack a punch not even digging me, you're kidding me. You're merely, clearly, really worthless besides... to get rough and it's tough but that's life deal with how bad it is...)
Every morning I rise I pray that my mum don't lie to me
I realise other kids ain't liking me
I dunno why but mummy don't lie to me
(Please don't lie)
If I'm so damn handsome why they all laugh in my face?
It takes my heartbeat to break
I wake every morning and shake my head to the Lord
Please take me away
Please pretend
I knew I couldn't be
Everything you wanted me to be
9 years old
I knew I couldn't read
Daddy's anger running in my genes
I'm f*cking up
I'm lashing out
She's asking why her baby boy is acting out?
I'm closing up
I'm closing up
Comic books saved my life
Heartaches and broken minds
I can't take these hopeless times
So I partake, pretend I'm fine
I'm not
Ain't picking fights with nobody
Too scared to leave the house
I grew up to be a homebody
Mummy should have known probably
Came back with my nose runny
Black eye, I need to hold something
I feel the cold coming
Blocks heating too
Another boy dead
His mum's grieving proof
Mother in my heart she wants me to win
Demons on my back they want me to lose
Can't stop now made moves since 22 just killed 23
Lil Jeff'll be proud of me
Maybe I'm meant to lose
Maybe I'm meant to lose
Maybe I'm meant to lose this race
Maybe I'm meant to lose